Let me start off by saying I had the best night’s sleep last night that I have had in weeks.  I have no idea why I rested so well, but I am very thankful for it.  I woke up this morning extremely excited!!! We got ready and Ty took me to chik-fil-a for breakfast.  I became a little irritated about something (I can’t remember what anymore) and all Tyler had to say was “snowflake day” and I perked right back up! We made it to the doctor’s office 15 minutes before our appointment.  Once in the elevator I was jumping up and down with excitement.  I calmed myself down before walking in to the actual office because I didn’t want people to think I had totally lost my mind! They called me right back and took my blood then we went downstairs.  We checked in at the surgical center and waited for about 20 minutes before they called me back.

Side note: While we were waiting we were watching whatever news station was on and they did a segment on IVF!!! The lady they were interviewing talked about how it was her 4th attempt and she was happy to say she was 5 weeks pregnant! I took this as a sign it was going to be a good day!

Once we were called back they did my blood pressure and all that jazz and we changed into scrubs/gowns.  The nurse said, “Daddy there is your outfit”. Oh how my heart melted! Look how precious my Tyler looked in his scrubs!

Clearly we were VERY excited!!!!

Anyways the nurse came in and said my original doctor had been called into the operating room so they were going to call down another doctor from upstairs.  Well let me tell you I loved the lady they called down.  She had an excellent bedside manner and she seemed to understand all my emotions! They brought us this picture of our embryos…

Dr. Bailey said they are both excellent embryos.  She warned us that it is likely we will have twins possibly triplets.  I said “Whatever God wants”.  Tyler was a little more skeptical.  The doctor put it bluntly: “In two weeks would you be more upset if you are pregnant with twins or if you aren’t pregnant at all?”  Tyler quickly answered he preferred the twins!

After she finished answering all my questions we went into the operating room and she started prepping me.  The embryologist came in and let Tyler look at our babies in the microscope.  Then we watched on the ultrasound screen while they put them inside my uterus!  It was a surreal moment to say the least!  After she was finished I had to lay flat for 30 minutes before we could leave.  They brought us a picture of our snowflakes in my uterus…

We made it home around 1 and I’ve been resting ever since.  I have some slight cramping and I feel really tired, but overall I feel pretty good.  I cannot believe we are PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise).  We are so happy and blessed!  I would also like to thank every single person that has prayed for us and sent us messages during this process! We love you all!

We will continue to do progesterone injections at night and the estradiol patches for the next two weeks until pregnancy test time! Here’s to hoping our snowflakes implant and make my uterus home for the next 9 months!

We are doing our frozen embryo transfer TOMORROW!!!!!!!

The embryologist called today!!! We have to arrive at 10 tomorrow to have my blood drawn then go to the surgical center to prepare for embryo transfer!!!! The actual procedure will begin at 11 am and last 5-10 minutes!!!  Then we will head home and my 48 hours of strict bed rest will begin. I am so excited I cannot stand it!!!!

This evening to prepare for tomorrow a dear friend from work came over and gave me a full body massage.  It was amazing and I did relax during it.  Then the doctor’s office called AGAIN and said I had to fill out all this STUPID paperwork which took forever and made me write over and over and over and over that we were infertile!!! Thank you for reminding me 80000 times why I am going to the hospital tomorrow! Oh and then it asked over and over are you sure you aren’t pregnant?  Well let me think….duh!!!!!! I was literally screaming at the computer therefore not relaxing at all!!!!  Ok rant over…

The purpose of this post is to beg (again) for everyone to pray for us tomorrow!!! Not just us, but everyone who is involved.  I have received all of your messages via text, facebook, phone calls, and blog comments! Thank you for prayers and keep them coming!  Our God has a plan and we pray it is for us to start a family with this cycle! After tomorrow we will be PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise).  I learned that term yesterday while reading a blog!!! I am so excited to be PUPO!!!!!!!

I am going to try and relax over the next two weeks and enjoy being pregnant for at least those two weeks! We have decided to call our embryos “snowflakes”.  It is becoming a popular phrase for frozen embryos and we (I) like the idea!  Tyler wants to call them “our babies”, but if you know me you know I like “cutesy” and “snowflakes” are a “cutesy” name!

Speaking of my precious Tyler, he is busy in the kitchen cutting up my pineapple for tomorrow and getting out the core so I can eat it! If you know me at all you know I have some serious issues when it comes to food, but if the core of a pineapple will help our “snowflakes” implant I’m going to try it!  I also picked up 100% pure pomegranate juice and Organic Red Raspberry Leaf Tea that I have been drinking the past couple days.  Anything to improve our chances!!!!

The following statement has really been on my mind lately. I would feel really bad if I go crazy on you for coming up and asking me if I am pregnant so here we go…

**Disclaimer: I would appreciate everyone to take into consideration our emotions during all this and UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCE (I DON’T CARE YOU ARE OR WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE) ask either one of us if we are pregnant!  I know that sounds harsh, but seriously people this stuff is hard on our emotions (specifically mine).  We will inform everyone of my blood levels when we are ready.  I have discussed this before in a previous post, but now that the procedure is less than 14 hours away I feel the need to remind everyone.

I feel really bad for even writing that, but I really don’t want to go crazy on somebody.  Thank you for your prayers, thoughts, and kind words.  I clearly need to shut my computer down for the night because my emotions are all over the place. *Now you see what Tyler has endured for the past 4 months*

Is it strange that it is easier for me to talk about all of this via my blog vs in person?? For the past several church services I have wanted to go forward to ask for prayers as we go through with transfer this week, but I can’t do it.  I don’t think I would be able to speak through the tears.  I don’t want people walking up to me and asking for the details.  I am so conflicted.  I want people to know because I am a firm believer in the power of prayer.  I believe that the more people that take us before the Father throughout this situation the better the outcome.  Tonight I just wanted to beg people to pray over us.  Pray over our embryos, my uterus, the doctors, nurses, my precious husband, everything.  Every time you think of us please say a prayer.  We have a long road ahead, but I believe the best is yet to come!!!  I’m sure I’ll post several updates this week since I will be laying in bed for 48 hours with my feet up! I’m still happy I get bathroom privileges, but I’m not sure if that means I can shower…I probably need to ask.

The actual procedure is only 5-10 minutes.  Crazy that our entire lives can change in 5-10 minutes.  I don’t know how to prepare myself mentally.  I am still repeating “Thy will be done” over and over.  I keep praying, “God I don’t care if it is 1, 2, 3, or 4 babies, but please please give us at least 1!!! Please make me a mommy”.  People have asked me multiple times, “Are you excited?”.  The answer…yes, but I’m cautious too.  Honestly I am every possible emotion.  It changes almost every second.  I thought it would be neat to have a little update from Tyler and how he is feeling about everything….

Tyler: Hello! Jenn just put the laptop in my hands and said “Here”, so here I am. I’m not big on discussing my feelings or opening up, but my perspective on everything is it sucks. Overall, I (like my wife) don’t like that we have to go through this. It is nothing like how I expected having children would be. I always pictured Jenn to pull some small stunt to surprise me with a pregnancy test and I would have my usually-level head get a little light with a rush of the different emotions. I quickly accepted the situation and I have been more proud of Jenn every day for handling it. As a guy, my emotions are pretty easily kept under a tight lid. But women… well… I know having children is something on their minds from nature and nurture, and the news to Jenn was devastating.  For this whole process, I lucked out by not having to do anything hard except give her injections in the back. I know it’s not fair for her to be the one to take all of the medicines. It makes having children seem more like one person’s job than a shared endeavor.

I tend to lose focus when I talk about things, so I’ll skip to recent events. How do I feel about transfer day: I am E, all of the above! I’m excited, nervous (I mean come on, we might end up with FOUR babies for our first-time family, if you’re not nervous, you need medical attention), scared, (whatever option D is), but most of all I’m positive. Every time Jenn asks if I think we’ll be pregnant I tell her, with no hesitation, yes. The nurses in her ultrasounds call her an “egg rockstar”. Everything that Jenn has had to do for the last 4 months has been perfect in one way or another, and I’m just sure that her body accepting the transfer will be just the same. I’ve been trying to bookmark scripture to help encourage Jenn when she needs to hear it. She’s been doing well the last couple weeks so instead I’m going to sneak one in here for her. I know she appreciates everyone who reads this and your thoughts and prayers, and I just wanted to say that I also appreciate your prayers for our family.

Romans 5:3-4 “Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.”

Well that left me in tears.  I cannot express how thankful and blessed I am to have a man like Tyler in my life.  God is good all the time.  Please continue to pray for us as we continue on the roller coaster of infertility.